i'm gonna vent because i'm that kind of person or at least

that's how i used to be

i always feel like my younger self in moments of solitude

and maybe that just means i haven't discover myself yet

i used to express my feelings without people asking for it

i used to write them down without thinking about them

and now i struggle with life just to get some words out;

i constantly find myself looking for inspiration now

when before, i didn't try to find it

it would just come like a hurricane to me

and my fingertips suddenly would feel full of creativity

waiting to be transform in beauty.

as years pass me by

each day i feel less like my true self

at least, like i used to be.

and i'm still trying to figure out if that's how is meant to be.